Dearest Louise Hay,
You changed my life today.
I’m sorry—I’ve got You Can Heal Your Life, but haven’t quite got around to reading it yet. I really should because I came across this quote from the book—
Remember, you have been criticizing yourself for years and it hasn’t worked. Try approving of yourself and see what happens.
~ Louise L. Hay (1926—2017), author, speaker, soulful teacher, healer and artist
You know how they say things come in threes?
The universe has spoken?
We all have inner-critics.
Mine has been rearing its ugly head a lot lately.
Doesn’t it always?
Recently, I left a job to finally give the dream a go, so, of course, the monster is circling—
What are you doing you’re no good at this you’re never going to make a difference you can’t get funding you know nothing about business you’re such a bad example what were you even thinking this is not your dream you have no dream and no clue what you’re doing you’re a failure failure failure fail
Self-doubt monsters are nasty!
Now, the you’re-not-good-enough-what-are-you-doing stuff is pretty standard, yeah? We’re used to that.
But, do you know what I wasn’t expecting? The this-is-not-your-dream line.
I’m finally at a place where I know with all my heart and soul what I want to do (never thought this day would come), but now that it’s here, the mind keeps jabbering—
What if this isn’t the dream? What are you doing? This isn’t what you’re meant to be doing. What are you missing? This isn’t the dream. What are you doing? This isn’t the dream.
I wasn’t expecting this!
I know it’s not true. I know it.
See? It really takes the shine off!
Now, Louise’s words come along and they’re like a lightbulb flashing on.
Of course, criticism and doubt don’t serve us.
I know it. We all know it. We do.
It’s just relentless. It hurts. It paralyses us. Keeps us from being our true selves, from contentment, by making us think we’re not good enough.
Never good enough.
Not doing the “right” thing, but what the hell is the “right” thing?
How do we win this battle? How do we beat doubt to reach approval? Acceptance?
I’m going to start by telling myself that there are so many things we can choose to be in this world and whatever we choose is the “right” thing—maybe it’s only right for right now, but that’s enough.
Right for right now is all we have.
And I’m going to start reading You Can Heal Your Life.